FEAR:Eye-catchy
Most people are scared…so scared that they even consider living for that. In the unimaginably large pack of ideas I had for this first post, my choice was to come in front of you and write about fear…any fear, even that one of once being yet unborn, of dreaming about things that are never going to happen (of dreaming in general I suppose), the fear of living longer than your wits, so on and so forth. But fear, after all, is what keeps us human enough to at least act like we care.
One day I walked on the street…I mean WALKED for real. And it struck me like never before: what if I won’t be able to do it again? Kidding, right? And I haven’t since then.
Let me ask you something! Really, let me! How much of the time you spend awake actually is used to SEE? None, 10%, 0.230941%, 87%? I will be honest: I do not know because I’m scared to find out that the answer. It is not all about numbers but still null is a really frightening figure to contemplate empty-minded.
Yes, I haven’t walked again, I don’t know if I ever will. I sometimes think uncertainty is really becoming THE lifestyle for me. Enjoyable! Yeeepeee! Now I can be ignorant without approval.
Ideas are malign right now for me. Maybe I should get some sleep before ignoring even further! One conclusion though (a long one) : fear is a must and I fear myself more than I fear an outer force. Why? I am the one that can put my body on the rack and feed it to failure, I can, by myself, tear my flesh apart with my teeth just for the fun of feeling something similar to soul raping, I can die alone and with no help whatsoever… Sincerely, fear and ignorance keep me alive. But on ignorance maybe another time…
Feed your ideas well before taking them for a stroll! Depressing for an empty-bellied mind, ain’t it?
